April 5, 2017
Rev. Melanie Weiner
1 O Lord, you have searched me and known me.
2 You know when I sit down and when I rise up;
you discern my thoughts from far away.
3 You search out my path and my lying down,
and are acquainted with all my ways.
4 Even before a word is on my tongue,
O Lord, you know it completely.
5 You hem me in, behind and before,
and lay your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;
it is so high that I cannot attain it.
7 Where can I go from your spirit?
Or where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I ascend to heaven, you are there;
if I make my bed in Sheol, you are there.
9 If I take the wings of the morning
and settle at the farthest limits of the sea,
10 even there your hand shall lead me,
and your right hand shall hold me fast.
This psalm once made me nervous. I didn’t necessarily want anyone to know me so well and to always be watching me I mean it’s kind of like Santa Claus, right? “You better watch out; you better not cry…” But as I have grown in faith, and now even when I grow in doubt, this has come to be one of my go-to passages for connection, for comfort, even for challenge.
Psalm 139 is a love song, a song of unconditional love, the kind of love that we humans strive to be and hunger to feel. God knows me, everything about me, and still loves me, not despite the fullness of who I am, but because of the fullness of who I am, who I am with every gift and every flaw.
This is active love. God not only desires to be in relationship with each of us, but is willing to pursue us. We can run, but we cannot hide. This may feel frightening — I know it once was for me — but it also feels wonderful. God is not satisfied with sitting back and watching God’s children work and play and grow. God chases us down for the purpose of working and playing and growing with us.
May we love others and ourselves with the same passion that God loves us.